Love/Hate

Dear Family Blog,

I've recently discovered our love/hate relationship. I know how fun you are to have around, you've given me an easy way to document our life through pictures and words. While at the same time I am able to share and communicate with our loved ones and friends. What a great tool you are in doing this. At first, you were fun and exciting for me, I loved sharing what was going on in our lives, like what clever thing Xander said yesterday, or what cool parents we are to throw a super-sized Star Wars party for KC. But, what I mostly use you for now is to blog stalk my friends/family blogs. It's fun still, but somehow I feel guilty when reading others blogs when all the while they have nothing new to read on mine. And it's not that my life or my kid's lives have become so dull and boring that there is just nothing to share, it's just that I have no interest or motivation to share anything.

My husband reminded me yesterday that I need to update you, but I don't want to. Sorry. I'm just not feelin' it. And now I realize that I have guilt for not wanting to blog about our lives. I don't keep a journal, I should but I don't. For along time I felt bad for not doing that, but you came along and gave me reason to not feel guilt-ridden anymore because you became my "journal". I'm hoping this stage of our relationship won't last much longer. Hopefully we can get this resolved and start back at where we began.

Yours,

Jenn

P.S. My Facebook affair means nothing to me, really it doesn't. It's just a filler in my day, really it is. Promise.