Monday, July 16, 2012

I'm to lazy to post pictures post...

I've been neglecting this blog.  And I feel kinda guilty about that.  Not guilty that my readers can't keep up with my life, because I know there aren't any readers out there who really follow this blog, except for my sister who lives in St. George and whines when I don't post often enough, but doesn't keep a blog of her own...hmm.  I feel guilty because I consider this blog my journal and a way to record my children's lives.  I'm a horrible journal keeper and scrap booker.  Each of my boys have a baby book of their own, but not much is in any of them.  One day I will make that a project.  Our life is so busy lately, and I get nervous that life is passing by me so quickly and I really don't want to forget these little moments and memories that we are making with our children.  My baby will be 16 months old in a week, and I will have a nine year old this fall. A nine year old.  Wow.

Thomas and I will celebrate ten years of marriage this weekend and I can't believe this milestone has come so quickly.  We have had ups and downs and it hasn't always been a bed of roses, but I can say that I would not change anything.  Our marriage has been mostly ups and not downs.  We have had a really good life, and I can't wait to see what the next ten years bring us. Thomas is my rock. My best friend.  I turn to him when I am scared. I turn to him when I need to make decisions that I feel can't be made with out his help.  He is my person.  I love him. He makes me laugh every day.  Even when I don't feel like laughing, he gets it out of me.  These last two years have been rougher for me.  I have had to share him a whole lot more with people.  He is very involved in his church calling and is gone a lot.  I have taken a back seat.  I am home with our children by myself more.  There are times when I don't mind sharing him, and others when I get frustrated with it. Those are times that I know I am feeling weak and not close to my Heavenly Father.  Yesterday was one of those days.  Thomas came in from being at the church all day.  I was in the kitchen trying to hold it together and clean up the dishes.  He immediately came in and wrapped his arms around me.  I cried and he just understood.  Not much was said, but we knew what each other was feeling in that moment. And then I felt better.  Immediately.  Thomas is my best friend.  We just get each other.  I will always be grateful that I picked him.

We have had a busy summer so far.  The first week the kids were out of school, we took a trip to Lake Powell with our friends, and had so much fun.  Then had a quick weekend getaway to our friends cabin up near Heber.  Next Thomas and I went to our ward's Youth Conference. I really enjoyed that because it was at Snow College campus, which is where I went to school. And this last trip was spent back in Lake Powell again with my family this time.  Pictures to come soon, when I'm not feeling so lazy.  Last week Thomas spent a few days at scout camp and then this weekend we will get away to Salt Lake for an anniversary getaway. Hopefully August will slow down a little for us before the kids have to go back to school. That's about all I have for now, I just wanted to get some thoughts written.